Thursday, June 11, 2009

what is this feeling?

Jesus, you are wooing me 
Come and be the lover of my soul 
All the days of my life 


Tuesday, April 28, 2009

The Only Way

"24Truly, truly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit. 25Whoever loves his life loses it, and whoever hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life. 26If anyone serves me, he must follow me; and where I am, there will my servant be also. If anyone serves me, the Father will honor him. " - John 12:24-26


I acknowledge my guilt O Lord
I strip off all my layers
Layers of creating my identity
Layers of false religion
Layers of hiding
Layers of lies
Ones with me all my life

Cover my nakedness
Clothe my shame



Let me choose this day
To forsake it all
My flesh, my sin, my old understanding
Forsake the enemy
With all my being
Let me choose this day
To hate my life in this world
To despise my own righteousness

Into the grave I go
The only way I can
For I've tried all else
This Self preservation life
Only destruction awaited
Crucified, for what Christ paid for
For what His blood has purchased
My freedom
My freedom

Then what right do I have?
To hold on to the old?

I repent for the accusations
That you were a cruel God
That you couldn't be trusted
That you'd fail to pull through
That you were stingy
Rejecting the promise of new life

Jesus, I'm sorry.
I sought after others
I considered what the enemy had to offer
I told myself it was okay

Deliver me O God!
My soul in so much anguish
Two spirits waging war
I cannot live this lukewarm lie

My spirit I commit to you
I will not flee when you shine the light
Speak the word
And I will be healed

You are the true and living God
You are good, your word confirms it
All creation bears witness
You came that I may have life
And have it abundantly


Let my words be true
Not just lofty promises
This day let me crucify
The old me, the newmi, the trumi, and the Eumi






Sunday, April 26, 2009

headache

I have two welts on my forehead.


He gives and takes away