"24Truly, truly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit.25Whoever loves his life loses it, and whoever hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life.26If anyone serves me, he must follow me; and where I am, there will my servant be also. If anyone serves me, the Father will honor him. " - John 12:24-26
I acknowledge my guilt O Lord I strip off all my layers Layers of creating my identity Layers of false religion Layers of hiding Layers of lies Ones with me all my life
Cover my nakedness Clothe my shame
Let me choose this day To forsake it all My flesh, my sin, my old understanding Forsake the enemy With all my being Let me choose this day To hate my life in this world To despise my own righteousness
Into the grave I go The only way I can For I've tried all else This Self preservation life Only destruction awaited Crucified, for what Christ paid for For what His blood has purchased My freedom My freedom
Then what right do I have? To hold on to the old?
I repent for the accusations That you were a cruel God That you couldn't be trusted That you'd fail to pull through That you were stingy Rejecting the promise of new life
Jesus, I'm sorry. I sought after others I considered what the enemy had to offer I told myself it was okay
Deliver me O God! My soul in so much anguish Two spirits waging war I cannot live this lukewarm lie
My spirit I commit to you I will not flee when you shine the light Speak the word And I will be healed
You are the true and living God You are good, your word confirms it All creation bears witness You came that I may have life And have it abundantly
Let my words be true Not just lofty promises This day let me crucify The old me, the newmi, the trumi, and the Eumi